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Never Forget How Hard It Is To Continue To Show Up In Your Story That Looks Very Different To What You Thought It Would Be.
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The month when Autumn brings all her glorious colours to the table, the last hurrah before we slumber through the Winter that is yet to be. The bright and vibrant reds and yellows and oranges we see across the forests in the trees are echoed in the colours of birth month flowers of chrysanthemums, the rich yellow birthstone topaz, the burning embers of the fires we light to keep us warm . . . everything is painted in warm colours, as if we need reminding of the cold blue that will soon be upon us.
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Well, if you want all the local goss, go to the hairdressers! Not only have I come home feeling much better about the head, I've got all the news about what's going on in the City.
There's a new Fish and Chip Shop coming where the Veg Patch used to be {that's now in the old Belmont House on the Cross Square. Lloyds Bank is soon to open doors on yet another chain, this time it's Salt Rock Clothing. Not my cup of tea. And at last the lease is sold on the former Food and Wine, it is being taken over by a new owner who is opening a new deli on the premises. It has been empty all summer long and been much missed by the visitors and locals alike.
No further news on the GP Surgery which is set to close on 31st October. It is disgraceful, in my opinion, that the First Minister is refusing to get involved, hiding behind that invisible cloak of a declaration of interest in that she has family members living in the City who are patients at the Surgery. Surely she would want to do all she could to help in that case? I know that's not how it works, but even so!
I've found out who the three City Councillors are that are being replaced, but so far no one has come forward for either election or cooption. I certainly would not want the job, although I've been asked to stand many times in the past.
Another bombshell is that my hairdresser is retiring in November after 54 years of service to the community. This now begs the question where will I get my hair cut, and by whom?
To quote the wonderful Bob Dylan, for the times, they are a changin'
I am not sure if I've mentioned this before, but I am crocheting a poncho. And, I'm finally getting somewhere!
I taught myself to crochet recently by using good illustrations and YouTube. One day I saw Sarah Payne Quilter demonstrating a rather lovely little poncho so I sent off for the pattern and yarn in Boho Festival.
Here are some photos.
Front cover of pattern
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As the temperatures plummet to unseasonably cold for mid September, I thought I'd share this serendipitous discovery of one economical way I will be keeping warm this winter.
Of all things, it's a cooling gel pad!!!
I bought it way back in the spring in anticipation of a hot summer and the need to cool down. Therefore, I must take full responsibility for the lack of summer here in west Wales.
Since developing Parkinson's I struggle to regulate my body temperature so I don't feel cold when I am cold, or hot when I am hot. I must take responsibility for ensuring I maintain the right core temperature by manually balancing it myself by way of heating and cooling aids.
With no discernible sight of summer, I decided to try it out regardless, so one summer afternoon, I put the pad on my chair and sat on it. It is as simple as that. I immediately felt my back and legs get noticeably colder. However, after about five or ten minutes, I noticed that the pad was now getting warmer, obviously absorbing my body heat, and instead of keeping cool I now found myself getting warmer as the pad absorbed and reflected my own body heat back at me. Not much good as a cooling down aid then. Total waste of money, I thought . . .
or was it . . .
The other evening, I sat here bordering on shivering as the temperatures dropped to unseasonably low. Suddenly, I had an epiphany as I remembered the cooling pad that made me warm! If the cooling pad reflected my heat back at me, would it work now? I put it back on my chair. I braced myself for the cooling surface, shuddered and shivered for a few moments as the cooling phase happened, but then the magic I'd been hoping for happened!
My own body heat started to reflect back on me! Hurrah! It kept me toasty warm all evening! Even when I went to make a cup of tea it retained the heat! More Hurrah! Cheaper than a hot water bottle, and also covers a greater surface area than one too!
Treasure wanted in on this one! He gives it a BIG TWO THUMBS UP!!! 👍👍
If you want to give it a go, just type in "Cooling Gel Pillow" to your search engine. This one is a pillow size one, but larger, bed size ones that would do well on a sofa are available too.
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It's coming up on three a.m. and once more sleep is the enemy. I am still making art tiles, it helps while away the hours and, if I'm honest, is becoming a little addictive, although in the coming fortnight or so I have signed up for two or three different online art classes, so the tune might change.
I made this tile and then I wished I'd documented the process. You see, most of my cards are straightforward doodles, building up using known patterns, making them easily repeated, but this one is based on a geometric pattern which I created as I drew it. I knew that not recording the process was a mistake . . .
So I did a Take 2 and made a record of the geometry while the method was fresh in my mind. Hopefully you can make out the light pencil lines and see how patterns emerge from them. The more you look at the feint pencil lines, the more patterns emerge.
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I am wallowing in self pity at the moment. You see, when I dream these days it's with a level of realism that I have never experienced before. It is so real it can't possibly be a dream. I am well again. And I can walk, and I can run, and I can garden, and do all the things I used to love doing. I am the slim, lithe and energetic woman I was not so long ago. And the people that I love are all there. And I say to them, look, I'm better. I am healed. It was all a bad dream. And then I wake up, and it takes me a little while to readjust and I realise that this is real, it was just a dream. And I can't walk, and I can't run, and I can't garden, or do all those things I held so dear any more. It was just a dream.
And I'm trying so damn hard to remain positive, but most days I just don't have it in me. Simple tasks that used to take minutes now take all day, some days they don't get done at all. Half of me is beginning not to care, but the other half cares very much. It would be nice if someone just dropped in from time to time for a simple chat. But no one does. I am forgotten now. I must get used to it. I think this is what happens when you just stop going places, people don't see you and they forget all about you.
I think one of the worst things that happens is that people say, let me know if there's anything I can do to help. But the trouble is that's not what you need to hear. What you need is people to be proactive, be specific, and ask Can I do XYZ to help you? Ask me if you can fetch my prescription from the chemist. Ask me if I need a few bits and bobs from the shops. Can you give me a lift to the hairdresser or the dentist? Or even as simple can I pop round for half an hour to have a little chat? A phone call would be good. I had friends who would phone me often, but it's amazing how people disappear at the first sign of a problem {illness/disability}.
Even the pleasure that I was getting out of going to the hospice for one day a week has gone because they've reorganised everything, and now I'm the only female in with all men. I don't like it. I might stop going.
Thank goodness I have my art. It keeps me going. It keeps me sane. And it brings me joy when I know that you have enjoyed it as well. It's the little things that matter now. My perspective has changed.
It's wild out there tonight. Winds over 50 miles an hour. Heavy rain forecast. Of course, it happens to be bin night. Yesterday was such a lovely day. Typically Autumnal. A beautiful blue sky, sunny day. That lowering light that comes after the summer solstice. A little bit chilly. but nevertheless, a beautiful day. Today we've skipped through autumn, and we're firmly in winter. It's going to be a long time until spring if the weather's going to be like this. It's 3:00a.m. and the weather is keeping me awake. I will take a nap tomorrow when it quietens down before the next weather front on Friday. Of course, it's bad weather, it's a Bank Holiday weekend and everyone has plans before the schools go back next week after Summer Holidays. The Sand Church competition was cancelled, and Monday is the local Carnival and Parade. Time will tell if the weather is good enough.